I am 3 YEARS old!!!!

Wow.... what an incredible journey it has been.  I guess the days approaching your 3rd birthday has been challenging for me.  I am not sure why the 1st or 2nd birthday, it wasn't as bad but this year.... everything just came back to me like it was just yesterday.  I can picture walking into the L&D, expecting you to come out and waited for you at the post op room but you never came.  Instead, you went into the NICU and never came back out till months later.

Oh my... what should I say to you Laynson?  I don't know where to begin, let's just start with "I am so very proud of you".  Things that were told that you will not do or take forever to do, you proof them wrong. You are so smart, unfortunately, they keep saying that you are smarter than Laynden who is almost 2 years old.  I guess Laynden just keeps more to himself.

Anyway, mama came back earlier just to make sure mama got to say Happy Birthday to you.  I love you and you have to promise mama that we will have uncountable birthdays together!

It's your dada's birthday today and tomorrow will be the first time mama is leaving :(

I am getting really really nervous.  In fact, I have butterflies in my tummy now thinking and knowing that I will be gone for 2 days and all I will see is you through the camera over the internet.  Will you be good?  Will you be ok?  OMG.... I just don't feel good now, feel like throwing up not knowing if you'd be ok my little baby.

This will be how mama will see you, yes, there you are, talking to one of our favorite night nurse, Miss Lorpu.

Our first birthday celebration as a family after the going through a scary period in our life :)

Yes, and birthdays is about the boys, not us, they requested 3 candles so that they each get to blow one :)

Thinking about it makes me really nervous.  Also, dada has been home since 12/22 and now he has to go back to his regular routine again :(  Why happy times goes on so fast?  I love you little baby boy!